11. Have a great coffee date with an artist pal and manage to talk about life and art and overthinking stuff, despite your little 'un whining and writhing and, occasionally, screaming up a storm.
12. Come home and put your little 'un straight to bed.
13. Light a candle.
14. Get lured into answering emails. Stop.
15. Ignore the nagging hungry feeling in your tummy.
16. Ignore the preciousness that arises from looking at your canvases, which have dried. The bubbles that appeared when covering the papers with gel medium have disappeared! The canvases look clean and a bit pretty and there's a pleasing symmetry. It would be a shame to cover them in paint... no?
17. No. Cover them in paint. Use a roller, a sea sponge, a paintbrush, bubble wrap, your fingers, whatever. Do it. Get those canvases messy.
18. Wipe some paint off before it dries, if you want to, if you want bits of your papers to show through. Or maybe you want to be the only one who knows they're there. Like secret layers, messages you want to transmit subliminally into the world.
19. Ignore the panic that you have put too much paint on, in all the wrong colours, and your canvases now look as fugly as all get-out.
20. Remind yourself that the fugliness, your unease: that's the whole point. If your art doesn't have a hideous stage, then you probably haven't pushed yourself far enough, really let yourself go, abandoned yourself to the process.
It's all about pushing through. That's the point of being an artist, being alive.
I'm so glad you gave yourself this time again today. Keep it up. I want to see how they look finished. And by the way, I think they look pretty damn gorgeous right now. I love your sense of colour.
ReplyDeleteI second Tinniegirl in everything!! I thought the beginning was looking pretty cool on it's own but adding these layers of paint looks BEAUTIFUL! =-)
ReplyDeleteSo glad to see you documenting this process!!
"It's all about pushing through. That's the point of being an artist, being alive"
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