This weekend has been: re-connecting with my body, running around Princes Park; indulgent breakfast of poached eggs, pancetta, sourdough, parmesan, tomato and two flat whites; pondering how I could be of service; savouring juicy nectarines picked fresh from my Mum's garden; reading The Age A2 section; listening to an inspiring podcast; luxuriating in Moroccan Orange Blossom, Pink Grapefruit and other sweet sparkling indulgences; adding layers to my gessoed canvases; laughing with the little 'un as we dress Elmo in her jammies; diving into a new novel; putting things in place to step into February, the month of purification.
It has also been: to-ing and fro-ing in my mind about sharing my Mondo Beyondo list in this space, and how much or little to share; eating unhealthy food; doubting how I could be of service; drinking more cider than I should; waiting (im)patiently while my husband spent most of the day on the computer, trying to get wireless broadband to work; bemoaning the rising temperature in the house; an impulse online purchase; getting cross with my Mum for asking -- as she has every time she has seen me of late -- whether I was OK and why I was looking so tired/flat/grumpy; envying the sleek street style of others.
Right now I find myself: lethargic; dreaming of Paris; grateful for this morning's two hour nap; aching all over; thinking about everything I have To Do this evening; wistful for North Africa; still unsure of how I could be of service; keen not to spend too much time online; reflecting on the ways in which LOVE has surfaced and remained hidden in January; excited about finishing my two canvases; aching for the cool change; looking forward to February, the month of purification.
Sometimes I feel too much. Sometimes I feel not enough. Sometimes all at once.
For now, I want to leave it be.
Back to the world of the novel for me.
Love this! What a beautiulf way to chronicle - what happened, what didn't (that's no less important that what did, what and how you're feeling.
ReplyDeleteI like that you bring your word into this post too. January has passed so quickly. Need to reflect on my magic making too. :)
PS: Isn't it enthralling how Australia lives for the cool change in the summer? :)
Ha, I wrote a post tonight about learning to just BE. I can really relate to the sentiment in this post.
ReplyDeletethis is why books are such good companions - you can retreat into them when the World feels like too much =-)
ReplyDeleteBTW; i like your impulse buy - i think you'll be very happy when it arrives!